Thanks to the encouraging comments on my last post about the "OK to Wake" clock, I've decided to stick to my guns and enforce the "stay in your room till the clock turns green" rule, even if it means that some days may start off with a few tears (hopefully just from Annika) until we get through this phase.
At first I was having some trouble with this decision, because it seems so selfish. Annika needs to stay in her room because I want a little more time to myself. She's upset because I want a few more minutes before I need to kick it into high gear. It's really all about me. But you know what? Sometimes it is about me. Sometimes I need to be selfish to be a better mommy. I think mothers often put their kids (and husbands too) ahead of themselves so much that they end up feeling burnt out and resentful. We're so busy taking care of everyone else that we forget to take care of ourselves. We lose a lot of those little things that make us feel like a person, not just a mommy. Or maybe it's just me that feels that way, but I'm guessing that there are others out there that can relate. As I've said before, I'm the type of person who definitely needs time alone to "recharge." So, yes, maybe I'm being selfish for making Annika stay in her room, but if I'm happier and more patient and able to be a better mother because I have a few moments to myself in the morning, then I think it's worth it.
So I'll admit it - sometimes I'm a selfish mommy. Sometimes I don't want to eat the left-over crusts; sometimes I want to go to the bathroom with the door closed; sometimes I don't want to share my last M&M. But if being a little selfish sometimes makes me a better mother the rest of the times, then I think it's okay. At least sometimes. :)